i like

some things i like and wish i could buy if i wasn't so damn broke.

i have been in love with vintage bird cages for over a year now. our dining room is decorated with birds and bird cage artwork. since i cant buy the rad antique ones i want cause they are over $100. i came up with the rare bird tank top. http://www.vanityexposedclothing.com/

i love this cage that hangs on the wall

its $70 at resteration hardware

bird cages are rad

i also enjoy chandeliers

the kind that hang in the dinning room

but most of all chandeliers that are printed on things

such as pillows.

if i had a farm house style kitchen i would have this

egg wire basket on my counter

buttons are always cute

i wish i knew what to do with them

so i could buy all these

thats all the things i like so far

more to come another day

name

yesterday Stephanie taught Ryan how to write his name in like 10 mins. i have been trying for months on and off, and she did it like that. i think he was more into learning from Stephanie than he is from me. he always gets frustrated when i try to teach him stuff, but he enjoyed learning how to write his name yesterday all thanks to Stephanie. im so thankful!! now its up to John and I to keep practicing with Ryan.

random

i have been taking wayyyy to many pictures with my iphone. i need to stop and use my real camera.

first picture: a bird cage plug i saw in a tattoo magazine on our weekley trip to the book store.
i want this plug!!! im obssesed with bird cages!

second picture: ryan caught a worm in his bug cage. he named the worm Shew Fly.

third picture: we took ryan to Kohls and got him the new toy story stuffed toys they sell for only $5 each.

fourth picture: my parents dragged me & ryan to the rv show at the fairgrounds, and i went in every single Airstream trailor. i have been wanting one of my own forever, too bad they start at $80,000.00 YIKES!

bed rest

as you probably know i have 8 cysts on my right ovary and a tear in the placenta, both of these issues cause me horrible pain. so much pain i am often on the floor in a ball and can not stand up. i told my doctor 2 weeks ago and she put me on bed rest for 2 weeks last week and this week. i have to return to work next week. being on bed rest is borning, but i need this time to relax so my body can hopefull heal itself.
if i am not better by next week my doctor wants to do surgery to remove the cysts. this is not what i want at all, having surgery can cause me to miscarry. so hopefully i get better, and if i dont, hopefully i can deal with all the pain for the remainder of my pregnancy.

on a happier note, i had an amazing mothers day! ryan got me a handheld fan that sprays water. and john got me a hot pink lawn chair. im excited for summer when ryan is swimming in his blue plastic pool from walmart, and im laying on my lawnchair with my spray fan all big a pregnant. we will be looking super white trash!

we went to great america on sat. i didnt go on any rides, i just sat on every bench i saw while ryan and john went on roller coasters. it was still fun for me, i love seeing ryan having a good time, he is such a big boy he can go on some roller coasters by himself now. ryan was telling me how he cant wait to take the baby on all the rides, it makes me happy that he is so excited about being a big brother.

new shirts = new pictures

model: Lauren Luck
photography: Wenzdai

this shoot was a blast, we went to 3 different locations at golden gate park. and im so stoked on these pictures!!

if you would like to purchace these amazing shirts go to

http://www.vanityexposedclothing.com/

April Pictures

                                                                    Great America

                                                       Ryan & Snoopy @ Great America

                                                Ryan & Charlie Brown @ Great America

                                                 Nora, Ryan & Natasha @ my b-day bbq

                                                                     Nora & Ryan

                                                                       True Love

                                                    Ryan just before his pool broke in half

                                                          Ryan @ Golden Gate Park

                                                     Lauren modeling one of my new shirts

                                  Lauren modeling another new shirt from my clothing company

Ryan @ the Giants game

pregnant week 11

today was my 3rd ultra sound in 12 days. which is not normall procedure. but lucky me im high risk pregnancy. so i will be at the doctors wayyyyy more than i want to. the reason i'm high risk is i have EIGHT cysts on my right ovary. when i was pregnant with Ryan i had a cyst, which the doctor told me went away. the doctor was an idiot and it never did go away, when Ryan was 2 yrs old, i woke up in the middle of the night in the worst pain i have ever felt, John rushed me to the emergancy room where they discovered a cyst the size of an orange, that was twisting my ovary over and over. OUCH! so now with this pregnancy i made them check cause i was feeling the same pain as before and in the same spot. sure enough i have not 1 buy 8 cysts making my life hell. i met my doctor today (she was the one that saved my life with the cyst surgery when Ryan was 2) i asked her back then to be my baby doctor if i ever got pregnant again, that way i have a doc that knows what i have been through. so i met up with her today, and she told me what we will need to do with the cyst situation.

A: if the cysts' stay the same size and cause me pain i can manage
i will have surgery after the baby is born to remove them

B: if the cysts get larger and cause me unbearable pain i will need emergancy surgery which most likely means i will loose the baby.

lets cross our fingers for option A

another thing wrong with me is i have a tear between my placenta and uterus. if i start to bleed because of it, i can miscarry.

basically this pregnancy is not going very well and im just in the first trimester.
i will give more updates as they come along.